Jessica Gray's Philosophies, Rants, Information, and Etcetera

My Inside Out The Philosophy of Inside Out When I reflect on my life, I realize I have been afraid of my emotions for years.  My biggest fear, I think, is losing control.  I have felt despair so black that I have considered taking my own life.  I have been so afraid, it has taken me fifteen minutes to plug in a vacuum cleaner because I was afraid of the electrical plug.  I have to force myself to get out of my house because I am prone to agoraphobia.  I have been amazed that I have lived forty years with a bad temper and have managed not to knife anybody, though certainly there have been many times where it was tempting.  I think one of the reasons why I'm afraid to drive is not only all the terrible things that could happen to me (car accident, car jacking, breaking down, etc.), but the fear that I would lose my temper over road rage. I feared my emotions, and I didn't do anything that put me at risk of activating them.  I lived in a controlled environment.  As a result

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Getting Nikola (my bicycle) allowed me to explore further than I could on my own two feet, though my trips had to be postponed when the summer heat became intolerable.  After succumbing to heat exhaustion on the last trip, I took the weather and heat index much more seriously.  I became a little disenchanted with a bicycle organization I joined, who seemed to favor touring out-of-the-way places.  Yes, they were often scenic...but after running into trouble, I have to admit that I have a desire to stay closer to civilization--at least for the moment.  It could be too that at heart, I'm a city girl.  I really don't like being far away from other people.  Though my neighbors can annoy me with their loud music sometimes, I try to remember that it is just nice to know that someone is alive out there.  Even in the city, you can find lonely spots that frankly just give me the heebie-jeebies no matter how scenic they are. With the coming of October, the heat started becoming more